wutz up, they call me 4real.
i was a member of the original FTI site before, but now i'm on a whole new kick tryna kick this habit instead of feelin sorry for myself all the dam time. I've been overall in recovery for a year in a half, goin but i've recently "relapsed," im honestly not sad, maybe its just an unconscious urge for some kind of control in my life. Alot's been goin from bad to worse lately, so thatz probably tha case, but i'm not here to complain. im not here to pose as someone i'm not, but rather someone i am becoming (or workin 2 be), ya digg?? i want to be free of this, but i feel like i can't live without it: im sure everyone can relate in some way. im happily hurtin for the moment. I need support just like everyone else here, im jus not brave enough to ask for it outside my monitor in the real world. I'm a good listener, and i've been fightin this since 7th grade, im now in college, so i've had a lot of experience with this disease. (not a good thing.) If any one even wants to jus share their story or needs a non-judgemental shoulder to lean on, i'm here =)