I'm so miserable today :( but I'm so bad at writing down how I feel accurately. I'm gonna try though.
I've started doing modelling and some of it is topless. I'm 100% good with this, I'm more than confident with my body when I'm in front of a camera. I'm not me when I'm being photographed. I have an alter ego type thing, she's called The PussyCaT, that's my model name.

I did a shoot recently with my fella, I loved it and had so much fun,Nick was apprehensive and nervous, understandably but he wanted to do it.
I love them pictures, they make me so happy to look at them. We signed them over to the photogrpher and he has some of them on his DeviantArt and in his portfolio. I'm fine with that, that's how it goes! Nick isn't though. He hates seeing pictures up of me with no top on and he gets really moody and he makes me doubt myself.

God, this is so hard to write down right! I probably sound really stupid.

To me, he seems ashamed of them, the fact that we did them and he doesn't like the photographer one bit, he doesn't trust him even though he is a good friend of mine!
Nick suspects he has alternative motives and only wants to see me topless so he can ogle me. He 's doesn't understand the art behind all of this! It's like he's never heard of Artistic Nudes. I know there's a fine line between that and smut but this is nowhere near it!

I have another shoot on Saturday. It's for a Calendar for a magazine. Not topless. But I haven't told Nick that I've asked to do a few more shots for my portfolio which wil be underwear/topless. I can't be bothered dealing with him!

He didn't tell his Parents he did a photoshoot with me. It's okay, but I'm getting the feeling it's because he's ashamed and doesn't think his parents will approve him doing photos. I don't just mean the topless ones...even the pics that are me and him, the really lovely ones that I absolutely love and want hung up in our house one day.

Because of this he's told me to take any links to them off my facebook/myspace and to take pictures down i have as default pics incase his little sister sees them because he's embarrassed and ashamed of them.

He's making me feel so self concious and bad about starting modelling. I love it, I enjoy it so much and I've always wanted to so modelling, ever since I was a teenager. But he's taken all the fun out of it for me and I'm finding it hard to enjoy it...

gosh...i've written alot...I'm so sorry. I just really needed to rant. I've had it trapped inside me all day.

Imogen,
ur not bieng selfish At All, if anything it just sounds lyk ur fella is a tad jelous in away, although he gets to see you like that all the time it may make him feel a tad insecure because your His girl and so when others see ur portfolio or whatever he may think that theyre just looking and bieng sneezy about the pics rather than looking at them from a professional point of view.

I understand what he means about his little sister seeing them but surelyu shouldn't have to take the links down to ur myspace/facebook or whatever it was, that's ur personal page and so therefore can put whatever the hell u want onit, it's up to him to keep his sister off of it.

I'm really glad that you've found something you like and enjoy doing, n in my opinion you should carry on doing it after all it's your hobby so why stop doing it for somebody else.. i think that if he loves you for you then he should accept the package you come with.. yno?

don't apologize for venting.. it's what were here for )

*hugs*

xx

I agree with some points with Jade, but not others.

From a guys perspective... Yes, it may be art, but it's also nude/topless art. Guys sometimes do masturbate to nude art, I even have. I do appreciate the beauty, but it is sexual material.

Relationships are about compromise. I know myspace doesn't let nude photos, even nude art, be displayed.

While I would never like to personally model nude.. or bottomless, since I'm a guy :p, but, you are happy with it. It's sort of the same with strippers or such.. there is a bit of jealousy involved. But, it's your hobby, it makes you happy... While there are some things that can be compromised, your happiness is *not* one of them.

And.. I hate it you're self conscious because of this. Obviously you have a nice body. Try to have a nice and serious talk about it with him, how you don't want to stop and such.

selfish??? girl get OUTTA here! =)
be PROUD u have the bravery and beauty to even pose nude in the first place.

i understand this guys a friend, bt don't let ANYone bring you down, even if it may be unintentional like this guy. DO WHAT MAKES U HAPPY hun =) it soundz like this modelin stuff does, so why stop?? & im in the process of becomin a stripper jus till i get through college, so i totally understand the many misconceptions and judgements that come from flauntin' wut ya got!! get to feelin better tho =)